没有你的第六天

school was fine, as usual.
and sq is very funny, especially when he sits with jj,al && cc.
i admit i still steal glances at you.
sigh, i cant help it.
when online, in my heart i wish you were online too.
but sadly, you dint. i guess you're really engrossed in studies that any other elses things doesnt matter anymore.
shrugs. i dunno.
the feeling's weird.
i seems to be standing in the grey area, my heart is.
are we friends or is there more?
i cant figure it out, but maybe we're friends afterall.
i shld muster up my courage to speak to you, thru any digital devices or personally,
i should.
cos the last r/s i was in, it took me six mths to a year to have that guts to talk to him again.
i dont want to do this to you, & i guess im old enough to handle this.
no more tears, no more crying.
im a big girl.
treat like we've never been.
it will be easier.