没有你的第七十四天

paused for a very long time before blogging this.
my chest is feeling so heavy.
maybe my heart is.
starting from friday,
everything was about you.
right after common test, to friend's home,
to saturday at ecp, till today,
till now.
im sucha failure.
i cant even forget about you.
when i saw how you move on in life,
& i saw how i thought i could be able to move on too.
i cant.
i cried on my way home on friday.
i cried on my way home in the dark corner of the bus on saturday.
i cried today too.
i cried every night.
who say all of letting go was easy?
who say erasing those were easy?
who say so?
step up & tell me.
cause everything is beginning to be clouded.
i dont know how i lose you.
i dont know why are these happening.
i dont know about myself now.
when i felt helpless about studies,
when there's no one to turn to,
i was helplessly thinking of you.
but you cant be there to help anymore.
when i opened my phys tys,
i saw the question you solved for me.
my heart sank.
& so long,
you wont be here for me.
friend asked me how i feel about you now.
im sorry, but i dont know what else is right to say.
but im sure im a outright cliffhanger.
cause you left me hanging there.
if something could kill me,
i wish it will be now.
anw, thanks cc for fixing my template.

慢慢的 這份愛 悄悄的住下來
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