没有你的第一百天
currently listening to:全世界都停电 - Tank
do you still remember what we said to each other the 100th day?
i've been reminiscing the days we shared.
it was fun being with you.
it was heartwarming seeing you smile.
it was simply blessed to have you.
you was chosen on my own accord.
nobody's there to sway my decision.
maybe its all wrong in the first place to start.
perhaps we would be better off concealing our feelings,
& wait till the time is right.
but no, we were both young.
this wasnt the expected ending i look forward to.
this simply cannot be.
i thought of all the possibilities.
all of it, between you and me.
now, when i walked down the path,
my heart feels empty.
its an eyesore even when i see how lovers smooches.
yes, but i cant stand it.
i got to admit, this is pure jealousy.
cause all of these were once possible.
not the physical touches,
but the feeling of being blessed, to be loved.
you remember the feeling?
constantly, i've been asking myself whether everything will revert to what it was before.
but the more i think, the more impossible it seems to be.
and the more distant it is that it seems almost unreachable.
its useless if im the only one clinging on, holding on.
but i dont want to think that you will do the same.
i dont ask for much on your part.
you can never imagine how emotional i am, how insecure i felt all this while.
the days seem like night to me.
everything simply look the same, feel the same.
it doesnt matter if any part of my life is lost now.
cause you're not even there to share the things i have in my life.
when i lose you, i didnt only lose you.
i lost everything.
this was how it is to me.
devastating, yes.
i dont think you took it lightly too.
i know you struggled with your decision,
but the fact that i was left with nothing but the choice to sucuumb,
it made me a little upset.
because you decided to let it all go.
you given up on me.
& you left me alone.
i lead a zombie corspe life.
i've not given you up but myself.
november 22, sunday
"happy 100th day.
i'll remember the plushie you gave me as an encouragement for passing the physics test.
i'll remember the hand-drawn card with a lovely poem in it, plus two hand-folded heart for our first month.
i'll remember the support you gave during exams.
i'll remember the sweet times passed together.
i'll remember how you always gave in to my temper.
and i'll always remember how you love me."
currently listening to:全世界都停电 - Tank
do you still remember what we said to each other the 100th day?
i've been reminiscing the days we shared.
it was fun being with you.
it was heartwarming seeing you smile.
it was simply blessed to have you.
you was chosen on my own accord.
nobody's there to sway my decision.
maybe its all wrong in the first place to start.
perhaps we would be better off concealing our feelings,
& wait till the time is right.
but no, we were both young.
this wasnt the expected ending i look forward to.
this simply cannot be.
i thought of all the possibilities.
all of it, between you and me.
now, when i walked down the path,
my heart feels empty.
its an eyesore even when i see how lovers smooches.
yes, but i cant stand it.
i got to admit, this is pure jealousy.
cause all of these were once possible.
not the physical touches,
but the feeling of being blessed, to be loved.
you remember the feeling?
constantly, i've been asking myself whether everything will revert to what it was before.
but the more i think, the more impossible it seems to be.
and the more distant it is that it seems almost unreachable.
its useless if im the only one clinging on, holding on.
but i dont want to think that you will do the same.
i dont ask for much on your part.
you can never imagine how emotional i am, how insecure i felt all this while.
the days seem like night to me.
everything simply look the same, feel the same.
it doesnt matter if any part of my life is lost now.
cause you're not even there to share the things i have in my life.
when i lose you, i didnt only lose you.
i lost everything.
this was how it is to me.
devastating, yes.
i dont think you took it lightly too.
i know you struggled with your decision,
but the fact that i was left with nothing but the choice to sucuumb,
it made me a little upset.
because you decided to let it all go.
you given up on me.
& you left me alone.
i lead a zombie corspe life.
i've not given you up but myself.
november 22, sunday
"happy 100th day.
i'll remember the plushie you gave me as an encouragement for passing the physics test.
i'll remember the hand-drawn card with a lovely poem in it, plus two hand-folded heart for our first month.
i'll remember the support you gave during exams.
i'll remember the sweet times passed together.
i'll remember how you always gave in to my temper.
and i'll always remember how you love me."
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