没有你的第一百零四天

received a stunning news.
she's pregnant.
sigh.
i really wanna talk to her.
i miss her terribly.
i want to know her life now.
but why is this happening?
or is it actually normal?
i thought she was following her sis's footsteps.
but, sigh.
i miss her.
i spent entire life with her.
from prisch till secsch.
i thought she was witty and smart,
and at least wise in her choice.
but no, i was wrong.
totally.
i blamed myself for being sucha bad friend.
i blamed myself for studying too hard.
i blamed myself for everything she is today.
but why is this happening?
sigh.
i wanna meet her badly,
no matter how crazy and wild she is now,
it doesnt matter.
cause she's one friend i always depend on.

so much has happened.
i wished it dint even started.
FUCK.