没有你的第八十五天

school was fine, as usual.
just picked a call from kok.
gp remedial.
damn it.
dreaddddddddddddddddd.
so much of it, i still have to go.
roar.
guys been to medical checkup for their army admission lately.
sigh.
okay, why am i even sighing?
hmm.
what should i post today?
there's nothing much either.
my rash aint getting any better.
i think im dying of terminal illness real soon.
oh. maybe thats better for me.
no worries, no troubles.
& especially no heartache:)
better still, i already have the thought of suicide at the age of 12.
haha.
& yet, im still not dead now.
such irony.
somehow, i really dread life.
life of the past,
& life of my present.
enough of my rantings.
on a cheery note, phys remedial was exciting?
yeah, real fun.
enjoyed the small little chat with dear mentor:)
so much for school/office politics:(
dont get it why are there guys/girls that are so...
simply put, dumb? silly? & seriously, stupid.
not to mention that im purfect, but i think im better wise in terms of characters.
but thats what i thought.
maybe im just the right opposite.
maybe i suck.
haha.
was about to go home alone, but saw bro walking towards school.
spotted him and strolled home tgt.
it was nice chatting about studies and further education,
& the serene surroundings, & the breeze wind.
maybe i'll walk home alone someday:)
though it may inject some past memories,
but i say i'll control it.
how well i can control, im unsure.
but at least when i sob down that lane,
there's no one seeing, feeling.
i dont need it anyway:)
congrats for getting such good results.
i see your prospect already.
better w/o me:)