met up with oldfriend for awhile. accompanied her to the beauty parlour. sat at mcCafe & chatted. changed environment to stagmont park. she wanted to reminisce prisch days. but then, ended up crying after a phonecall. i went home after hailing a cab for her. there was no dinner for me. went to help mummy carry stuffs with bro. but bro went off first, went ahead with dinner-cum-supper at yewt, again. before that, saw prisho. had a fluffy small chat with her. she's still the same. nothing more, nothing less, not much changes still. home-d @ around 11pm. handed another oldfriend the shoes, chatted for awhile at her doorway. bathed & onlined. finally. the red day is here today. kinda glad. my mood now feels a little weird. idk whether its because of me pms-ing, or because some things that i realised after meeting up with friends that i once thought i knew them deep down but then to realise it isnt the case anymore.

when people are attached, they tend to fear breakups. when people are married, they fear divorces. this oldfriend of mine told me, im lucky im still in the dating stage, etcetc. and i sat there pondering, marriage really changes people's life,fate and destiny. by a whole load. even relationship between two union changes. you know, the feelings the passion the adrenaline surge cease and fade overtime. how one turns from lovey doveys to ordinary husband and wife r/s. the rigour for two is no longer as strong. trust is an uncertainty. shucks. i dont want this to happen. i want us to go on, i need us to go on. but, people are scared of the unknowns. im human, &im scared too.

i really think im pms-ing thats why i blogged all these. im appalled. i think im crazy over marriage, or maybe the longed for freedom?