除夕
had fever. luckily, the fever went down and remained at 37.8deg. but well, the whole body feels jelly, lethargic. dont even feel like moving myself. managed to push myself to sit upright and wrote the letter for love. no appetite but felt hungry though. still had to help mummy out for reunion dinner tonight. throat hurts so much. heart is even more so. the fight that sparked off that night, its really killing me.
when dinner started, i asked everyone whether they were happy this new year. but i wanted to tell them, im not.
listened to secondhand serenade's fall for you to sleep.

初一
still feeling alittle bothered today. not as much as the past few nights though. felt better after pouring out all my feelings in that letter. proofread it, hoping i dont sound like i wanted a separation/breakup. but after reading, it still sound like one. but well, i dont know how to make it more readable. i know it will hurt, but i still bring it along.
cabbed to ahma's home. ate something, just a few mouthful of the dishes and handed the rest to mummy to finish it up. sat there watching the tv. no, i was staring at it. stayed for alittle while, went off.
love told me he had no mood to meet me, but me too. i had the same feelings as he does. but i know i had to, or i cant get to sleep tonight again.
met love @around 830~9pm. went up to his home. got nothing to do outside too. spent some time watching shows on his lappy,spent some quality time. got home @12am.

初二
woke up in the morning. help mummy with lunch. relatives coming today. well, nothing much today, except me making a baby girl cried. ha.
see, new year is as such. just another typical day.