i woke up later than usual today. i dont know but i still feel tired. caught my csi and lunched. haircut was supposed to be today, but damn bro postponed it till tomorrow. damn damn damn. was getting a little cranky already. on the way home was worse. mood was totally dashed. you know, by someone luh(-.-) i was totally stunned when i received that msg, appetite totally ruined because i was picking something to eat for myself at that moment but i dropped that idea. only bro and dad got something to eat while i stoned at my couch with eyes staring at the tv. seriously, i dont know what im even watching. after awhile, i thought this wasnt getting anywhere. my mood got even worst cause i didnt know what to reply & i tried to get some sleep. i was really tired. oh, and i thought sleeping could at least take that something off my chest. but when i woke up at 6pm, i was slapped with that feeling again. sleeping was just a temporary getaway. just an excuse. just an escapism. i was almost on the verge of crying but this is like, small matter? i dont even know why i got this, ha. i went for a cold bath, and squad there for the longest time. i dont even know whether the water was from the shower or prolly my tears already. well, and i guess today was a bad day. but should just brush it off my shoulder & be optimistic huh :D sardine wants me to accompany her for cosmetics. i hope i dont be carried away and buy some for myself. argh, i need retail therapy. its just four more days to cny eve. i should be happy.